Day 1380 – I Really Can’t Do It All Anymore

Friday, I helped prepare for a bridal shower. We stayed up until about 1 and got up around 8:30.
Saturday, I helped get ready for a bridal shower, enjoyed the bridal shower, went to a birthday party and stayed up until about 2 a.m…..mostly because I hadn’t seen Bret most of the weekend and we were chatting about what the other missed. We mentioned that maybe we wouldn’t make it out to church, but we’d see in the morning.

Well, this morning rolls around and we were way too tired to go. I slept in a little bit. I had planned on dropping off an album and then going to a photographer meetup. As the morning continued, I realized I was SO tired and it was just too much…so, I decided to stay home from the meetup. Then my client emailed and changed the drop off day…I cannot tell you how happy I was!

Why? Well, mostly because I was SO tired from the weekend. So worn down. It was definitely humbling to realize this. I used to be able to stay up late, get up early, do it all. But not any more. I will say I’m SO grateful that I work for myself and can make my own hours. If there is a day that I’m worn out, I can adjust what I have to do…If I need to take a nap, I will.

So, I totally rested ALL day today!

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Day 1374 – Nothing Too Exciting Happened Today…

So, Friday I worked about 4 hours, Saturday, I worked about 15 hours, Sunday I worked about 8 hours. By today, I was tired! I took a long nap last night and then slept somewhat in this morning.

For the rest of the day, I’m not going to lie, I really didn’t do anything! I mean, I cleaned up my desk, went through my emails, did a little blogging. But otherwise, I watched Lost and played games. I edited a few of the bridal show pics, but didn’t finish. It was a fantastic day!!! Boy did I need the rest and relaxation!

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Day 1353 – Thank God For Snow Days!!!

Today, it snowed. It’s still snowing. I don’t think I’ve ever seen snow this late in the year! I realized either today or last night that all the weird weather started when Bret got here…we had those two big snow years back to back…then no snow….and now weird spring snows. I’m blaming it all on Bret. But, I was SOOOOO thankful for the snow today!

So, my Sunday was just a little crazy. I attended church and heard an AMAZING sermon about palm Sunday. There were things about Christ’s triumphal entry that I never knew and it made me so much more thankful about how God is in control of all the details, big and small, in our lives. I’ll try and blog about that another day, but if I don’t, just ask me!! 🙂

At church, I met with one of my grooms (I love photographing my church family!) and we finalized his contract.

Had a little time to kill so I got to read a bit of my current fiction I’m reading.

Then I went to a going away party for a few hours. I got to see a TON of people I haven’t seen in a long time. It was such a sweet time. 🙂

I took a quick break at Panera Bread to update my blog (it feels soooooo good to be caught up finally!)

Then I drove up to Elkton to meet with a couple, who booked me on the spot thank you very much! 🙂

THEN I drove back down to Bel Air to deliver the Rupert album at about 9 at night!

I was so tired when I got home, but I was able to stay up to finish the third round of the contest….which has been super successful by the way! I’m so thankful for the contestants and their friends and family!

Unfortunately, I got a bad night sleep…which was not good because I had a breakfast meeting with some of my favorite vendors. It was so hard to get up this morning! I got up in time to go but didn’t think it would be wise…being so tired and driving in the snow (which I don’t think is too bad driving wise…) But got a text that it was rescheduled.

No joke, I went back to bed. I have no shame in saying I slept a good long while after that. I can’t remember the last time I slept in! Ahhhh. I feel so rest and so ready to take on the week! I only have about 4 things on my calendar this week and I am very thankful for that! Keep a look out for all the updates/new things I do!! 🙂

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Day 1348 – Update, Apology and Encouragement

Today was the first day in the last few weeks that I’ve been able to rest, sleep in and breathe! Whew! Between shooting three weddings, designing and building a few albums, losing my grandfather AND starting a big contest, I’m just plain tired. It’s been tough keeping up with everything!

I’m so thankful for the busyness of the last few weeks and I’m excited to share the two weddings I just shot AND share the albums I’m designing for my clients! I’m so thankful for how different this year has been than last.

For my dear family who is grieving, for any of you grieving or going through a tough time, I wanted to share this great entry from my devotional:

“Sorrowful, yet always rejoicing. (2 Corinthians 6:10)

A stoic person despises the shedding of tears, but a Christian is not forbidden to weep. Yet the soul may become silent from excessive grief, just as the quivering sheep may remain quiet beneath the scissors of the shearer. Or, when the heart is at the verge of breaking beneath the waves of a trial, the sufferer may seek relief by crying out with a loud voice. But there is something even better.

(*** see my note at the bottom!!)

Forty years was a long time to wait in preparation for a great mission. Yet when God delays, He is not inactive. This is when He prepares His instruments and matures our strength. Then at the appointed time we will rise up and be equip to our task. Even Jesus of Nazareth had thirty years of privacy, growing in wisdom before He began His work. John Henry Jowett

God is never in a hurry. He spends years preparing those He plans to greatly use, and never thinks of the days of preparation as being too long or boring.

The most difficult ingredient of suffering is often time. A short, sharp pain is easily endured, but when a sorrow drags on its long and weary way year after monotonous year, returning day after day with the same dull routine of hopeless agony, the heart loses its strength. Without the grace of God, the heart is sure to sink into dismal despair.

Joseph endured a long trial, and God often has to burn the lessons he learned into the depths of our being, using the fires of prolonged pain. ‘He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver’ (Mal. 3:3), yet He knows the specific amount of time that will be needed. Like a true goldsmith, God stops the fire the moment He sees His image in the glowing metal.

Today we may be unable to see the final outcome of the beautiful plan that God has hidden ‘in the shadow of his hand’ (Isa. 49:2). It may be concealed for a very long time, but our faith may rest in the assurance that God is still seated on His throne. Because of this assurance, we can calmly await the time when, in heavenly delight, we will say, “All things [have] work[ed] together for good” (Rom. 8:28 KJV).

As Joseph did, we should be more careful to focus on learning all the lessons in the school of sorrow than to focus anxious eyes toward the time of our deliverance. There is a reason behind every lessons, and when we are ready, our deliverance will definitely come. Then we will know we could never have served in our place of higher service without having been taught the very things we learned during our ordeal. God is in the process of educating us for future service and greater blessings. And if we have gained the qualities that make us ready for a throne, nothing will keep us from it once His timing is right.

Don’t steal tomorrow from God’s hands. Give Him time to speak to you and reveal His will. He is never late – learn to wait.

He never shows up late; he knows just what is best;
Fret not yourself in vain; until He comes just REST.

Never run impulsively ahead of the Lord. Learn to await His timing – the second, minute, and hour hand must all point to the precise moment for action.”

Streams in the Desert, March 20 AND March 22

Ok, so I typed up all that and realized when I was done that I turned too many pages! But I think they mix together very well!

Day 1339 – Catch Up Day And Us With Mr. & Mrs. Murphy!

Holy smokes, what a weekend! Saturday we shot the Murphy wedding. We stayed up SOOOO late Saturday night! I intended to download the images and post a sneak peek. By 2 a.m. I just couldn’t stay up any longer. Now, realize, it was technically 3 a.m.! Yikes! To add to the crazy, it was our Sunday to serve on the coffee team, which means we had to get up at 7 a.m.! It wasn’t too bad though, we were just really tired! Church was great, then I got to hang out with Mr. & Mrs. Hotte and share their wedding images! Such a great time! I truly feel like one of the family. I look forward to a long friendship with them AND their family!

I came home and did a little work, then kicked back to watch some of my favorite Sunday night shows…Once Upon A Time and The Walking Dead. I think it was THE best episode of Once Upon A Time so far. GREAT show!

Today, I let myself sleep in. AMAZING! I LOVE having flexibility in my schedule and sleeping habits. I’m really not a schedule oriented person….one day I can work a 14 hour day into the early hours of the morning….a few days later, I’m up early and working until the afternoon. What works for me this month will probably be different next month. So! Being able to control my schedule according to what works that day is just fantastic. I was also thinking about how I don’t dread Mondays any more. My “work week” is so different than the 9-5 work week. Mondays are like my Saturday. Saturdays are like my Monday (sort of).

Anyways, I ramble! So, here’s a shot of us with the newly married Mr. & Mrs. Murphy!!!!

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