Day 2835 – repost – “Can You Go Into Bars?” “Can You Hang Out With People Drinking?” And Other Common Questions About My Sobriety

I’ve shared my story about struggling with alcoholism before. It’s common knowledge that I don’t drink. I want to say at the start that everyone has a different experience with sobriety, alcoholism, etc. This is just MY experience and what it’s like for me. Don’t take this post as a “oh my friend doesn’t drink, so this will apply to them!”

I, thankfully, experience almost zero temptation and struggle with drinking. The only reason for this is God’s work in my life. This is not a will power thing. It’s all God.

Ok, let’s jump right in!

“Can you go into bars?”
Yes! I love hanging out with my friends and bars are a great place to do it. Happy hour specials can be fantastic! It’s a cheaper bill for me either way! 🙂 I will say, there are some times, especially when I went to Padonia Station/Ale House a few weeks ago, that I think about memories (ha ha, or non-memories) of my drinking experiences. I joked with one of my friends there, oh yea, I remember throwing up in that bathroom and that one. Fun fact, I was driving home from Padonia Station the night I was arrested for a DUI. So, I will say, there are SOME times that I think about these things. But it doesn’t make me sad or make me want to not go to a bar. It makes me SO thankful that God did not leave me where I was. Thankful that God had mercy on me during those times and kept me safe.

“Can you hang out with people drinking?”
Yep! If anything, I may be a bad influence to those who are drinking….I get drinks when they need them…this is especially true if I’m driving. Again, not everyone has the same experience with drinking. Some people can actually control themselves and not make a mess of things. I am not one of those people! So, I’ll just drive the ones that can! 🙂

“Are you tempted to drink?”
I would say, there might be a little temptation here and there. Bret has a box of wine in the fridge right now and I’ve had the passing thought – “I’m an adult, I can decide to drink a glass, I’d be fine.” But since I’m sober when I’m thinking this, I realized, um, no, I’d not be fine. My biggest weakness was after that first glass, I’d HAVE to have as much as possible. So, any time I feel a slight temptation, God very graciously reminds me of what I gave up.

“Will you ever drink again?”
No. I have no intention of drinking again. There is absolutely no reason for me to do so. I can celebrate with friends with a can of coke just as much as a shot or glass of wine. I can go to Ireland and tour the Guinness factory and not have a drink (one day soon, I’ll share about my first brewery tour – which was actually the brewer of the last beer I drank). It was making this decision that finally sealed my sobriety. Every time I would “quit” before, I would find an excuse to drink down the road. So, no, no more alcohol for me.

Are there any questions I didn’t answer, let me know in the comments and I’ll do another post!

And for lack of a photo that really fits, here’s a “shine” that I do drink. 🙂 (oh my, I crack myself up)

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Day 2823 – Want To Read My First Book For Free?

If you have been wanting to read my book, but haven’t because you don’t think it applies to you, or you don’t have the money to buy it, you’re in luck today! For the next few days, my book will be free on Kindle! Do you know a Christian business owner? Make sure you share a link with them.

If you do get a chance to read it, let me know what you think.

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Day 2818 – When I Put Down The Book – or – Fighting For Your Mind

If you read my post yesterday, you know I was sitting on the porch, reading a huge book. Well, not long after I posted that blog, I stopped reading the book. The author started to bring in some topics I don’t like to read. There are some things that just stick in my mind, and I don’t want them there. This isn’t the first book I’ve stopped reading, and I’m sure it won’t be the last.

A lot has changed in what I put into my brain over the last few years. I completely cut out watching anything with nudity (it is shocking how much has nudity these days), I stopped watching all of the tv shows I used to watch – mostly for time, and some of the content. I found myself spending HOURS reading about the shows I watched, hours watching the shows. It gave me so much brain space, and time after I cut them out. Ha, and more time to read!

Every person’s mind is different. We all have things that we struggle with. I may forget what I ate for breakfast yesterday, but I remember scenes in movies, or passages in books for years. As an author, my mind is alive with stories constantly. I don’t want to feed the evil, negative, rotten parts of my brain. I want to feed the childlike, joy filled part of my brain. So if it means I have to put down the book, turn off the TV, walk out of the movie, or do extensive research before I read something, I will do it. The clarity is so important to me.

Have you ever put the book down?

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Day 2790 – Crying In The Coffee Shop – or – Officially An Author

I am sitting in the coffee shop, crying. Neither of things is out of the ordinary, but the reason today is new. I am officially a paid author. I realized I published my book* in December, but today I got my first payment for book sales. I also got my first payment for being an affiliate partner with Amazon. I officially made money while I’ll slept. It is so awesome to see the physical, er, digital statement, of a few of my goals. I found myself feeling the same way I did when I saw my book in person for the first time. Utterly overwhelmed. I’m so thankful for the spark in my soul to write and share my experiences. I’m so thankful that others are interested in reading what I’ve written. Thank you to those who have purchased my book, read my blog, or clicked on an Amazon link* and made a purchase. Y’all encourage me to keep going.

And to those who have dreams, continue to chase them!

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Day 2789 – Lost Moments Because Of Drinking

I’ve been reflecting a lot on my previous drinking problem, my sobriety, and my lost moments over the years. It has been almost 2 and a half years since alcohol last touched my lips. It has been nearly 10 and a half years since my hands were cuffed for drinking while intoxicated. I’m also approaching my 35th birthday. Lots of reason for some introspection. One aspect I haven’t touched on as much is the lost moments because of drinking.

When we stopped in San Antonio, I definitely got drunk. I don’t remember much from the last few hours at the bar, and driving to the next stop. I remember asking Bret for nachos, and he got them. At the time, I had a broken tooth and used wax as a temporary “cap.” I was so far gone, I don’t remember swallowing the wax. I don’t remember the sunset from the rooftop bar. I don’t remember the whole game when we played giant Jenga.

When we visited a friend in California, I don’t remember half of the evening because I had TWO glasses of beer as big as my head.

When attending a party with some of my cousins and long time friends, I don’t remember all of the hanging out, or leaving my purse in my own car, thus prompting a freak out the next day.

On many of our getaways, I don’t remember all of the time in the hotel because of the amount I drank.

I don’t remember portions of my best friend’s rehearsal dinner because I had SO much wine. There’s even a picture of me getting a glass of wine from the server with the “are you sure about this” face. (See below)

I don’t remember full trips to the state fair because of how much I drank beforehand and during.

I don’t remember full conversations where I’m actually trying to share the gospel with someone else….again, because I was drunk. These are the moments I’m most embarrassed of.

There are family events I don’t remember because I was drunk.

There are two family vacations I have very little memory of because I drank the entire time.

I think back to these things and while embarrassment is a big thing I feel, I also feel untold gratitude that God would protect me through it all. That He still loved me, despite my screw ups. I also feel untold thankfulness that He gave me the strength to finally quit drinking for good. It has taught me, over and over, that no one is too far from God’s help. He is able to change anyone.

I don’t know your struggle. I don’t know what you have failed at over and over again. But I can say that God can work in you and He can change you.

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