make your own job | 365daysofmarriage

I have been a freelancer for 2,423 days. I’ve really only had one office job where I had a cubicle, but it was enough to completely sour me to cubicles. Oy. Now, it’s was probably more a matter of me being in a job I didn’t love and didn’t let me thrive than being a bad job. Like anything in life, my worst job is someone’s best job. But a cubicle life is not for me.

When I first started working freelance, I was running a wedding photography business. My income was ok, but nearly as good as my 9-5 job. Even now, I know I am making much less than I am worth. But, I am taking steps to learn more so I can earn more. It wasn’t until recently that I realized I had a deep set belief that I was not worth more. While in some respects, I was completely surprised by this realization. In others though, it was obvious – one only had to look at my bank account to see I did not value myself like I should.

But that right there is one of the biggest things I’ve learned over the years – all of it is a process. You grow, you change, you take ten steps back, you learn more, you take 100 steps forward, then you fall down the stairs. But you just keep going. I can look back and see that if I wasn’t freelancing right now, I wouldn’t have been able to help with our real estate business as much as I have been. Given the fact that we’re sharing a car and Bret has a day job, I can be the one to run errands, and he doesn’t have to take off.

While there is a part of me that misses having a fully stocked office supplies closet, I am so thankful that on most days, my cubicle is wherever I am.