Day 2882 – How Checks Made Me Cry

The title for my book, Trusting God With 2 Cents, came from a very tough financial time in our lives. There were little to no bookings for photography, a massive amount of debt, and a lot of discouragement. On one particular day, I was paying bills, and after I paid everything, I had 2 cents left. When I realized that our daily bread had been provided that day, I cried. We were still in debt, money was still tight, but our bills were paid with a little left over.

Today, I had a similar experience. For the full story, let’s go back about a month. We use checks sooooooo rarely, to the point that we had our first apartment address on our set. We haven’t lived there for 5 years. I ran out of checks at the beginning of May, and I placed an order. I knew they took a while, but for some reason, they were sent back to the bank. I received a call on Tuesday to let me know my checks were just chilling at a branch about an hour away. They asked if I wanted them mailed to me. I said, honestly, I’d rather just pick them up because I’ve been waiting so long. They offered to interoffice mail them to my local branch, and that they would arrive the next day (yesterday). I called that branch yesterday and they hadn’t arrived yet. This caused me to stress and get angry. What injustice! I need those checks! I have two important checks that HAVE to be written today. I was all keyed up to demand free checks if my personal checks didn’t arrive. I lost sleep over this. What am I going to do if they don’t come in? How am I going to handle this? I worried over my large to do list with all of my running around. Not fun, let me tell you.

This morning, I listened to a sermon about the “Why are you so downcast, oh my soul” verse. I love that verse. I love that reminder that we need to talk to our souls and be like, um, dude, don’t you remember what God has done for you? Come on now friend. In the middle of this sermon, I received a call. “hey lady, your checks are here, calm down and quit worrying.” Is what the rep would have said if she could read my mind. I thanked her, hung up the phone, and just cried. I cried for joy that I wouldn’t have to run around today. I cried because I got the call so early in the day. I cried because I couldn’t believe that God loves me so much, that He cares about little things like this.

So soul, you need to calm down and trust.